Authenticity in 2018

I was asked what my word for 2018 will be and I realised I’d given it no thought whatsoever- too busy working, procrastinating, and feeling like an imposter.

Giving way to certain yearnings, I’ve always wanted to be able to say what I’m feeling. I’m always catching myself looking on enviously at those that can and do say what they’re thinking and feeling. Repercussions of such actions has always led me to stay pretty silent. The word ‘honesty’ sprang to mind but to me, that almost gives a sense of carte blanche – a ‘fuck you, I’m just being honest’, moral compass and empathy be damned attitude. Dismissing that, perhaps ‘authentic’.

Authenticity to me is not just an honesty in feelings but an honesty in actions and behaviour. To align ones own values, to have them settle deep within and not be swayed off course by trying to fit in, by trying constantly to be right, or for the fear of hurting another.

It’s a fucking tall ask though!

This adoption of authenticity will challenge my practices, my ego, my relationships, my narrative but, to be authentic is to be free.

All the best in 2018.